On Death and Faith
Currently, my husband is watching over his grandma who is in the hospital. More tubes will be pulled today and we hope she is breathing well enough to make it without them.
Locally, 2 very wonderful people passed away last week. I was asked by my friend to sing at her dad's memorial service. I knew the man- a wonderful man in his 80's. He was a believer- (born again later in life) who had really lived three separate lives in one lifespan. I was so nervous to sing, as I wanted to honor his memory and it has been 5 years or more since I have sang in front of others. God really blessed me with a gift that day, as I had only heard the song 3 days prior. (I am NOT a talented singer and will never be on radio). Somehow I hit all the notes- in a quiet shaking voice, alternating with a friend. If you asked me to sing the song now, I could not. I just don't know it- but I knew it long enough to sing it Friday when it mattered.
Also at this funeral, I watched a moving rendition of a Paul Simon song played by my friend's brother. He had played the song for his dad a week before he passed. Human relationships are so very complicated...and he mentioned before playing that he and his dad had not always seen eye to eye. But when he became a father, he understood his own dad a little better. Anyways, he choked up on the third verse about the father/son. I lost it too.
All this has me thinking a lot about how I will be remembered. Who would come to my own funeral? What would they say or sing? Circumstances of the last two weeks have been heavy, but cleansing. I want to be remembered NOT as the runner...(well, It's OK to be a side thought!). But as a person who cared for others.
For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” Galatians 5:14This is a stretch-- a long-term goal. A much bigger challenge for my life, but lasting and one that's well worth the effort.
Also, I have renewed my commitment (again!) to read through the Bible in a year. The most consistent I ever have been with Bible reading was when I was either in a group study, or the first time I decided to read the new testament from beginning to end. My difficulty comes in reading the old testament - I can never stick to reading it from cover to cover. Usually when I get to Deuteronomy I fall off the wagon... This time I am using a program that sends a day's worth (3 chapters- 2 old testament, 1 new) to my inbox.
On Time trials
How crazy is a 10k time trial? This was on my schedule (as a race) a few weeks ago, but I have pretty much re-written everything on my 5k training plan anyway, so considered dropping it. I didn't want to race a 10k if I couldn't PR...I didn't think I could. And then I thought.."Well...that's silly! Just make your own race and then you'll know for sure."
I don't make the practice of doing time trials. But the curiosity got me - that and the idea that I could use a good, solid 6 mile tempo run. :)
Something different between this time trial and the three 10k races I did last summer/fall, was that I was not getting mile splits in the TT. Just the average pace for the whole 10k as I was doing it. I might try that approach next time in a real race- except program it for longer (6.3 maybe?). After doing this workout, I am fairly certain I had the sub 40 last summer, but just let myself try to slide in just under the clock and missed it due to a long course and bad planning on my part. Today's course was actually short, since 10k= 6.21 not 6.20, but I am confident on a good course I could make my goal. In fact I was so satisfied by this TT I might just hang up my racing shoes. Only kidding. It did feel pretty good though!